"Expressions" Mulder's apartment 1:34am Mulder wakes up suddenly.A loud ringing is coming from beside the couch.He soon realizes that it's the phone. "Mulder!" "Fox, it's Mrs Scully..." "Hello..." "Sorry to disturb..." He is very surprised. What would Scully's mother want at one o' clock in the morning?Suddenly it sinks in. "Is Dana alright?" "No Fox.She's been taken to hospital an hour ago.She went into a coma.The doctors are not very hopeful.I thought...." "I'll be right there." Panic swept over him as he was rushing aroung to find a pair of jeans and a t-shirt.This couldn't happen now. Not now dammit!" He found him self walking through the hospital doors not remembering how he got there.He see's Scully's mother walking out of a room. "Fox.." "Where is she? Has there been any change?" "She's been the same. No improvement.She is in there.." The door was staring at him.Room 108.He opened the door.She was lying there all sorts of tubes coming out of her.So helpless. He closed his eyes as if when he opened them everything would go away.But no. Scully was still lying in that hospital bed.His worl was still shattered.He felt a kind of fear he never experienced before.He walked over by the bed. "God, you are beautiful", he said. Even pale as she was she still looked gorgeous to him. "Why didn't I say that to you before?Why didn't I tell you that you are the most beautiful woman I've ever seen?How could I be so stupid?Now you'll never know...You'll never know how much I loved you.."His voice was so soft and gentle. It broke his heart seeing her like this..He kneeled by the bed and touched her face.He gently placed his lips on her forehead wanting her to feel that he was there. "Oh Scully.." His eyes sterted to water.He had so much to say but the words could not come out.Tears started rolling down his face. "Scully.. Scully, I want you to try and listen to me.I know you can hear me.I...I don't know where to begin.This is something I should have done a long time ago.You've been a part of my life for the past 4 years and they.. they have been the most wonderful years of my life.You already know that you are the only one I trust...I'do anything for you Scully, you mean so much to me.I just wish I had the guts to tell you this before...I love you Scully..I love you so much." He could nt control his tears anymore. The pain and the anquish he felt were unbearable. "Don't leave me now.I need you Scully." The doctor walked in the room.His face looked worried. "I pressume you are Mr Mulder.." "Yes.." "Miss Scully's mother told me you'd be here." "Doctor please tell me.Will she be alright?" "I can't really answer that question Mr Mulder.The truth is..I don't know.There is nothing else to do but wait.The cancer has pushed into her brain.That's why she went into a coma." "But there must be something we can do.." "Am afraid not Mr mulder.It is all up to Dana now.It all depends on how strong she is.." "..She is the strongest person I know..She must get through this.." "I hope so mr Mulder.Itruly hope so.." The ddor closed leaving him hoping for something that was impossible. "You can't leave me now Dana.Not after all we've been through.You're strong.You can beat this.." He climbed onto the bed placing his body right next to her's wanting to feel her close to him.He placed his face against her neck.If this was their last night together then he wanted to stay by her side. She opened her eyes wondering where she was.She couldn't remember anything. "Scully.?" "It's Mulder.You are in the hospital.You are going to be just fine." "What are you doing on the bed Mulder?", she said weakly. Suddenly he felt more embarrased than ever.How could he explain? "I..I wanted to be next to you Scully.The doctor really didn't think you'd make it." "Mulder.." "Please let me finish Scully..I think it's time i told you how i feel" "Mulder you don't have to say anything.I know..And you should know as well" She gave him one of those smiles that he couldn't resist.He couldn't wait any longer...He ran his fingers through her hair making her experience a feeling she never experienced before.His lips touched hers softly but passionately.It was better that she had ever imagined. "I love you Dana.I loved you since the first day I met you.." She wasn't able to answer him back.the loud ringing woke her up. "Scully!" "Scully what's going on?You should have been here an hour ago! Skinner's going mad!" "Oh I'm sorry Mulder.I must have overslept...I had the weirdest dream..Tell Skinner I'll be right there." She put down the phone but she couldn't stop smiling.I've had the weirdest dream Agent Mulder..If only you knew what I was dreaming about........."